Guess what I have???

So, lately I have not been sleeping. It actually has started to concern me and I have been thinking about getting some medical attention for it. I have a lot of things going on in my life and the stress is unreal. I can't seem to get through it on my own.

I looked up what the internet had to say about this and here is what I found:

Overview:
Insomnia is difficulty getting to sleep or staying asleep, or having nonrefreshing sleep for at least 1 month.

Symptoms:
Difficulty falling asleep on most nights
Feeling tired during the day or falling asleep during the day
Not feeling refreshed when you wake up
Waking up several times during sleep

Causes:
Primary insomnia refers to insomnia that is not caused by any known physical or mental condition.
Insomnia is caused by many different things. The most common causes of insomnia are:
Alcohol
Anxiety
Coffee
Stress
Secondary insomnia is caused by a medical condition. Depression is a very common cause of secondary insomnia. Often, insomnia is the symptom that causes people with depression to seek medical help.


I guess my depression is my problem so I need to try to deal with this. I only wish I didn't feel so alone in this world.

The ABC's of Me!

A - Available or Taken: Available
B - Best Friend: Obsolete
C - Cake or Pie: Neither
D - Drink of Choice: Coke
E - Essential Item You Use Everyday: Computer
F - Favorite Color: Red
G - Gummy Bears or Worms: Bears
H - Hour you normally wake up: 6 am
I - Indulgence: Purses
J - January or February: January
K - Kids: 2
L - Life Incomplete Without: My boys
M - Marriage Date: June 15th
N - Number of Siblings: 1
O - Oranges or Apples: Oranges
P - Phobias or Fears: Too many to list
Q - Favorite Quote: In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: It goes on.
R - Reason to Smile: My sons
S - Season: Autumn
T - Turkey or Beef: Turkey
U - Unknown Fact About Me: Can't think of one
V - Veggie You Hate: Brussel Sprouts
W - Worst Habit: Doubting myself
X - X-rays: I've had way too many over my time
Y - Year born: 1971
Z - Zodiac: Sagittarius

Theme Song

I have taken this song on as my theme song lately.

It's Been Awhile

Well, it has been awhile since I have posted anything. I kinda knew this was going to be an issue but oh well. I will try to be better.

Since the last time I posted, I started school. That is so much more time consuming than I imagined. I knew it would keep me busy but I am still trying to time manage everything. I am starting to get things scheduled but I am still trying to finalize it. Hopefully I will figure it out before this block of classes is over. Only 3 more weeks in these 2 courses and then on to the next 2.

I am still looking for a job! I knew the recession was going to be an issue but I thought I would have a job by now. So much for that. It is getting harder now because I am coming to the end of my funds that I had saved up. I do have a couple interviews this week so we will see what happens. I absolutely hate interviewing, but I am getting through it. I feel like you are being judged the minute you walk in the door and not after they hear what you can offer them. Oh well, I am trying to stay positive and stress free.

I will try to post a little more frequently but I don't know why I do this really. It's not like anyone reads it or even cares.....

Tagged....

4 shows I like to watch:
1. The Good Wife
2. Amazing Race (new season starts February 14th)
3. Biggest Loser
4. Grey's Anatomy

4 things I am passionate about:
1. My boys
2. My friends
3. My family
4. Living life

4 phrases I say a lot:
1. Pinky Swear
2. Give me a minute
3. Are you serious?!
4. If you say so


4 things I have learned, or am learning:
1. Words are just words
2. Patience
3. Forgiveness
4. Not everything needs to be under my control!

4 places I would like to go:
1. Australia
2. England (home)
3. Las Vegas
4. Mexico

4 things I did yesterday:
1. Register for School
2. Cleaned
3. Went to my mom's
4. Text

4 things I am looking forward to:
1. Starting school
2. Being happy again
3. Going out with Stacey again
4. Life being normal again

4 things on my wish list:
1. New Cell Phone
2. Good grades
3. Happiness
4. Purses

4 people I tag:
1. Amanda
2. Heather
3. Stacey
4. Anyone else who thinks it is fun!

School...

Well, I am going back to school. Never thought I ever would but being out of work has opened my eyes and it is the best thing for me. Yeah, I will be putting myself in debt with student loans but I think in the long run it will be worth it. I am changing my whole career field also. So I am going to go and get my Associates of Arts in Healthcare with a concentration of Medical Records. Wish me luck!!!

Amazed

It amazes me how many people in my live tell me that they are there for me but really aren't. I guess you really know who your friends are when times are tough. My question is why say something you don't mean. I understand that everyone has a busy life and has things going on in it but come on. How hard is it to pick up a phone and just say "Hi how are you" even if it is through a text. I don't want nor need friends who only want to be friends when things are good or when they want something. I don't ask much from my friends and I have always been one to do for my friends no matter what my situation but I am now realizing who my TRUE friends are and let me tell you I am pretty disappointed not to mention hurt. Why should I care about them if they don't care about me?? Oh yeah, cause I have a heart. I guess I could say something to them directly but why would I want someone to feel like they HAVE to do something or feel sorry for me.

My First Blog

So people always tell me that I should write down how I feel to help me. I suffer from Bi Polar ~ Manic Depression. I am not too sure how this will work for me but I am willing to give it a shot. I may not post on here everyday but then again I may feel that this actually does help me. As for today, it is a start. I have been very depressed the last couple days so I thought I would get this started. I guess we will see......